the things we think we know.

You know, those things like, wash your hands; wear sunscreen; take your license with you when you drive; no shirt no shoes no service; gas prices are always gonna be more than I want to pay; any amount of groceries can be carried into the house in 2 trips if it's all in plastic bags; & Jesus loves me.
those are all things that I count as truths. & yet I only ever forget the importance of the last one. If I don't wash my hands, I'll know. If I don't wear sunscreen, trust me I'll know then too. If I don't take my license with me when I drive, chances are that'll be time I get pulled over. woo. no shirt no shoes no service, I mean come on! just don't wear your pants people! As to the groceries one, I don't forget that one cause I'm way too lazy to make more than two trips! but "Jesus Loves Me" like uhhh....I forget that a lot. I forget that He's pursuing me. That He wants a relationship with me. I look at people that I love, & I think about when they're having a hard time, or going through an extremely difficult situation, & it truly breaks my heart! I want to be able to help them carry the load, & I want to make it all better. However I almost never can. & yet. here's God. He's telling me that He CAN take part of the load & make it better, & I FORGET ABOUT IT. How's that for ungrateful & stupid?!
All this to say. I've been recently very much so reminded of all the wonderful things God has & can & will do for me. Not that things are going to be great & jolly & happy & easy all the time, but that through the hard stuff, He's got my back, & He's got a plan, & in the end, He's waiting & wanting to give me the best He has.

Fires break my heart...

Last night I found out that fires ravage our beautiful Colorado once again. I'm speechless. I don't know what to do...I'm gone, & even if I was home, there wouldn't be much else I COULD do aside from pray, which I've been doing here, but it carries such a disheartening feeling with it. & that's how I know that this is Satan. Man. I. Hate. Him. He oppresses us, & prods us, & he just all around makes us feel down right crumby! He brings us to tears, & he hurts us, he gives us outrageously false ideas about who we are, & what we should do, but what I've learned is that in those awful things, he gives us that push, that little baby shove, to defy him, & fall on God, to say that, "No! we will not take that as the final answer!"

we are called to pray IN FAITH. & so pray in faith we shall do. Satan doesn't have any grip on us, & we can tell him to get behind us, because we have the authority & the empowerment of the Holy Spirit. we have the strength to endure these fires, & anything else Satan decides to throw our way. We may have only a little strength, but we are not weak, we are God's children, & He will not let us be destroyed.