amazing things

Jesus. He is doing so many amazing things. EVERY DAY.
He makes the sun rise, the clouds come, the light breezes, the car work, the money, the clothes, the house, the blessings, the meals, the electricity, the friends, the family, the phones, the food, the music, the movies, the tv shows. See how quickly it changes?
while those are all things I'm thankful for, I sometimes wish I didn't have them. I really do. Because they are blessings, but they can easily be distractions, I can't even begin to tell you how often I don't read my Bible, because I have too much school, or a tv series due back at the library, or how often I don't pray because I'm just too tired, from staying up late the night before with my friends. or how often I become selfish in the sense that I DESERVE Jack In The Box tacos. Very quickly, & much too often{more often than not sadly...} I, in & of myself, turn my blessings, into distractions. I allow them to become more than they are meant to be, & I quickly get caught up in their "splendor". I shove Jesus to the back burner of the stove, & I don't remember about Him until I find my relationship with Him, dry, overcooked, & burning. It saddens my heart, to the very core, that I claim to love Him so much, & yet I often don't even feel He is worthy of the attention that is not even a 1/10000000000000000000000 of what He deserves. I forget that He has feelings as well, & that He desires to get to know me, to talk with me, to love me, & have me love Him in return. I forget that He did one of the most amazing things ever, by saving me!
I'm a romantic. I love the whole "saving a damsel in distress" deal, & boy oh boy, Jesus did that with me. He saved me, & took me out of my worst moments, & situations, & He said "Here you go. I've picked you up, I've shown you how to do it right, you won't ever get it, but here's your clean start again. Give it a go."


so....here I go.